I wake up this morning with such a heavy weight on both my mind and my body. I’m finding it hard to merely function today..
I am not, and have not been myself for a little while now.
I’ve been reactive, moody, stressed, faint, and uneasy.
I sit here struggling to write this because my hands are shaking, my stomach is queasy, and my head is cloudy.
I need to write. I need to finish the introductory lessons for my course.
But I need to feel good.
I haven’t been doing anything differently in terms of diet or exercise, consequently I am unable to pinpoint anything that could be causing me to feel this way.
So, I snooze my 5:45 alarm for the gym and allow myself a few extra minutes to lay in bed.
I take a few deep breaths into my stomach, taking in all of the beauty, goodness, and light in the world, and exhale peacefully out my nose, letting go of all the bad, and all the negativity that I am currently experiencing.
After about 30 minutes I decide get up and practice some of the yoga I was learning for a little over a month in Thailand. It’s been a while since i’ve practiced this form of Yoga, and I think it’s way overdue that I get back to my daily routine.
When I was on Koh Phangan, and island in the south of Thailand I was learning an ancient form of Hatha yoga grounded in tantric philosophy.
What does this mean? Simply put, it focuses on healing the mind, heart, body and soul. It’s not the “sexy booty” yoga we often practice and are exposed to in the Western world.
This practice is one of the most beautiful, powerful, enlightening and healing things I have ever learned/experienced.
People ask me why I don’t drink.. Well, because I have this. I have something that makes me feel exponentially more high than any drug could ever facilitate.
In brief, my practice allows me to experience the world as a child again. It helps me let go of the past, forget the future, and to live in the present. It allows me to see unconditional beauty within myself, others and the world. It shows me hidden truths that the world and sometime myself burry deep within. It leaves me with a sense of connectivity not only with myself, my body, and my mind, but also others, the world, and nature.
It heals me.
I think that sometimes it’s hard for people in the western world to understand that something SO simple can have so many benefits. But it does, and I believe whole heartedly that yoga, and more specifically this practice can truly change the world.
I had to leave whole foods to get to work, so this blog post was put on pause.
As I was driving I noticed a little friend had decided to accompany on my journey. It was a ladybug.
This lady bug had more spots than any other ladybug I have ever seen. And maybe I’m crazy, but if I remember correctly, the more spots a lady bug has, the more luck it brings.
To me, seeing, and being in the presence of this lady bug was a sign, a synchronicity.
I’m not sure if synchronicity is a familiar term to everyone, but it is essentially the idea that coincidences in our life don’t merely happen by chance. Even more, they are meaningful, and if we live in awareness these synchronicities can bring new information and opportunities into our lives.
If the idea of synchronicity interests you, this, and many other spiritual concepts are displayed beautifully in my favorite book The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield.
Love & light to you on this beautiful Monday.